Woohoo!

So like i was saying in the last blog.
I am learning more andmore about the characters of the bible! They are soo cool, i hope i get enough information to pick a favrite =D

So far i know these guys plus special things about them.

Job Faith
Nehemiah Burden
David Heart
Roman Soldier Faith
Elijah season

And my flip camera will be coming in around next week so ill be posting videos here soon woohoo!

look at that baby! Itll be so easy for me to post vids and update my youtube hooray!
Thanks God!

i want one of these shirts too!! i could like secretly spread the word how cool!

ohhh and i want a shirt like this =D it is pretty innovative.




click here to check it out!! --->TEETEE

Holy Matrimony

Here i am in this hot dog place. Theres free wi fi and it is close to my class. So i guess i am going to chill here until my class starts. Hopefully Thomas will swing by and i wont be so lonesome. Oh i am kind of in a bad seat. Too late i guess im already settled but the smell of the hot dog smells delicious but the Lord will sustain my fast. Praise God =D

Anyways, during the weekend i went to a marriage for a family who is really close to ours. Well were not so close but we used to be. They all speak filipino so when i got there i was like, trying to give them the hint that i dont speak filipino but i guess they just dont speak english. haha that was mean sorry iono. The wedding was ok, i was the candle person first in-line. Scary eh? Well not really i was more scared of ruining the moment for her because i did not go to pactice. for those who dont know, It's the guy and girl who walk up first to carrying candles down the line to light the 7 candles on both sides. It's not our fault we were late though cause it was last mnute for us. If it was my dedcision i would of definately stayed home.
But i was really blessed to see the ceremony, it was touching. How God was the publisher and finisher of faith and how he was implemented in marriage. I really do not understand how all the homosexuals just want to redefine marriage. It really is silly. It is the first instituition of God, and (digressing...theres a blonde chick that everytime i look up i always catch her eye. Kinda awkward O.o ) anyways, that was the 1st institution in the bible and it combined the man and the woman.
God made woman so that man would not be lonely.

clearly it says in Genisis 2
"It is not good that man should be alone; I will make a companion for him, a helper suited to his needs." vs18.
"God...took one of his ribs...and made the rib into a woman, and brought her to the man." vs 22
"This explains why a man leaves his father and mother and is joined to his wife in such a way that the two become one person." vs 24"

There ya go. I pray that the homosexuals will realize what they are doing. They have been giving too much freedom and have created answers on their own rather than those of the wise. Back then, only men had certain jobs and women had the others, why? because it was more suitable for them.

I could get off at this topic but i think ima read the bible for a bit. it'll be cool because it is in public.

wait there are more things. I am telling you this month of prophetic church teaching is craaaaaaaazzzzzzzzyyyyyy. I love the word that God has impressed upon us. Pastor was really good, he basically freestyles through the Holy Spirit and i really want to be able to do that, my only problem is that i do not know enough.

He taught the church about how that one part in the bible. About Elijah the Woman and the son. Listen to this, this is great. How Elijah is fed by The Widow at Zarephath.

The Widow at Zarephath

See Elijah is a man

im running outta batt be ak later.

neemiah.

Charisma

Last night i decided to go back to the INtervarsity fellowship held at sdsu. I went to the same spot i went tok last weeek and could not find them. I think i circled around campus about 50 times, it was kind of embarrassing bbecause i kept seeing the same people as i was going back and forth and i could not help but thinko about what they thought of me

Probably something like, "that was the seventh time i saw that guy, i think he's lost"
So i asked friends, like this OH this guy

LEMME DIGRESS.. there's this guy who said hey you! your from youtube. I was like yeah, but inside i was like OHHHHHHHH YEAHHHH!!!!!!!! hahaha, i felt kind of famous and it was weird. I was like who are you? and then he said, oh it's ricky from rickycharms. haha that's his youtube site so go check him out, he is a dancer and he's pretty friendly he wants to collaborate and i said yeah then we departed.

Anyways back to what i was saying, i saw him and he asked his friends if they know or can locate where intervarsity is. They said no and directed me towards their office but said the place had nobody in it. It was weird when i was in it, i saw the christian place, located right next to the gay/lesbian/str8 alliance club. Then i thought, wow that's awkward. ahaha. Anyways i went to the hall where they were not at,. the same palce i first went to and these people sitting next to it were like, are you loking for intervarsity, at first i was a little embarrassed but it was ok. I met this guy Beau and he said that intervarsity was being held somewehre else, and he walked me there. I felt really noob but it's ok.

Wehn we got there people were looking at me cause i was new, it's weird cause i'm the guy at my church who introduces people to the church. Now i see it in a whole different perspective. Anyway, when we got there, we basically did our Jesus thang and worship and praise started. The worship leader and other 4 people (including kajone, 2 other guitars, and a guy who uses falsetto [which i think is kinda weird]) They were leading worship and basically giving new people the jist of what intervarsity is, what worship is, and things like that. It was really cool. Of coursen i am not new to God and thank God everyday for the mornings he wakes me up. But as i was getting into the song, i did not know it so i just looked at the words and tried to follow. In my old church i worship all out and i feel comfortable there. Unlike in intervarsity i did not feel so comfortable. I know this is wrong but i wanted to worship with my hands str8 up and my voice lifted high, since not alot of people did that, i was very discouraged and limited. But though i was limited i felt like i was convicting people. Which is good.

But when pastor Beau invited everyone into a time of prayer for forgiveness or things like that i asked for prayer and the guy who welcomed me offered to pray for me. I said yeah and we went to the back. I told him my situation and after he prayed for me, suprisingly he requested me to pray for him. I am really glad he was convicted and hope God shows more oppurtunities for him to shine like a city on a hill. Lord God have your way upon Intervarsity and make it for your cause. Thanks.

I told my dad and he seemed proud, and encouraged me to start going more, and i said of course. I was going to ask him but he mentiuoned it first so Praise God. =D

Wake-up call.

Okay so i was basically ut on blas and i feel like a big jerk. Today for RWS 92a class, wel in general im the guy who asks the weird questions and ligten up the room, sacrificing myself for their humor while the teacher makes fun of me with some small joke. Well today, i forgot my book for class. The book we need to read in order to pass and we need to bring it everyday! Well i forgot that book and she told us to read a paragraph from it. I change seats and sit next to Mark who has a book. Gracefull he shares with me and i am looking at the teacher. Problem is i can see the teacher. Its ok sometimes if you mess up as long as the teacher doesnt notice or see you. This time, i was in clear view, if you looked in my direction there was no way you would be able to see me. Mrs Goodman said that she has 3 rws classes. 1 that is failing and the other. She says our class is still figuring out which kind of class we are going to be. When she found out another guy forgot his book, she threatened everyone on writing a paper if the mistake was to be repeated. Tottal PRESSURE! GEEEZ. i met this girl and i cant hang out with her because of the status i made. The teacher said that we have to take this class seriously and watch, youll see each other separating as the days pass. Therll be a side that does the work and the class thatll be repeating the cours. Evidently i was the guy that sparked everything and i was basically agreed to be the guy that was on the failing side. A big wake-up call, i have to get on course and prove to her i can do it.

God's Favor

It's like everything i try to get i get. A pastor once preached over me and blessed me and reconized God's Favor over me. What grace eh? the second picture was what i saw for a long time turned out the breakdancer guy had alot of people who werent members just raising the numbers

New taste

i now have a new acquired taste for all things holy. =D

I used to be so addicted to finding the newest songs from hip hop artists such as tpain and Chris Brown and everyone. Of course i listen to them but not as much. For every 100 christian songs i listen to, i listen to one worldly. I really like the direction i am going and it just very convenient and easier to just meditate in the songs words and music =] so beautiful.

Last night i found the Christian channels on my tv and even though we removed basic cable, we still have the 300+ shows! I just want to be uplifted and not distracted. God is really showing himself through many vessels and forms!

It really is just stuff my dad always encourages me to do such as playing more christian music in the house. He said that i bring the bad thhings in the house, or used to. And it influences the whole household. But now that it's christian everyones happy, and i am positive GOd is pleased. =D The thing i like most is how it influences my little brother Jarell, i notice as he walks around the house he sings alot of hillsong and Israel HOughton, and its pretty cool and very different from the worldly songs. I know it may not be a big impact but he is still young and soon he will mature in Christ!

Theres this really cool song that i hope the band could learn someday, its called Crazy by Deluge. The worship leader Jonathan Stockstill who i thought was some conservist worship leader who is prolly white and old but turns out hes a really cool dude. It talks about sacrifice in worship and giving it ALL to GOd. Check the song out, it feels like a matrixy song about some guy who is comtemplating the importance of GOd in his life in some dark porch or something. Or like he is training in some dark scene and then he starts worshiping god all out.



I wanna make a video to this!!!

no class?

So i have a 3 hour break about everyday of my college semester. It's pretty convenient since i am able to sleep at night without staying up for homework and just do it during school. It's a way better environment than at home because at home my little brothers and my parents, once they see me, they always have to say something. -_- i can't work like that unlike in sdsu everyone is doing there own thing so they have no reason to bother you in the first place. Just the sound of computers being typed away at. 
Anyways, i had this essay due today and thought i would make it. Well i had a two hour break today right before the class i needed the hw for came up. I was stressing out because i reread the prompt and really did not like my essay. Ithink i am going to restart it because it is just hideous. I have a problem when it comes to writing i always tend to explain what the author is saying instead of analyzing what the author is doing to prove his point. When i see stuff like that i just get frustrated. But i always just whisper to God to calm me down. 
So i finished my esay, well the basics of it and i was fed up with it. So i finally printed it out and rushed to give my xtra credit paragraph to my public speaking teacher, then went str8 to the class i needed to turn in the final essay to. When i got there there was this girl and she was like, isn't class cancelled today? Ad i was like i dont know. I went in the room and no one was there. Then another classmate came by and the girl asked her if we had class and she was like no. She replied with then why are you here? Ansd she said she was just passing by. I was pretty convinced so i left feeling very stressed over nothing and i here i am blogging. ugh. im going to read my daily bread now gbye. 

Angelea

just beautiful!

A Gift

Well youth was last night and we switchd into even smaller groups. I hope we dont keep dividingbcause ima miss out on friendships and stuff. But of course youth is for fellowship but its really about the oppurtunity to seek God. I thought i was in the band already but i guess i was not. A little discouraged i felt like not worshipping and trying to ake Brother D see me but that was not the right attitude. Quickly i rebuked that spirit and worshipped God without hindrance. Thank God for the worship team for buiding that bridge between heaven and earth. 

The preacing was good, it was about living in the world but not being of it. I talked alot compared to everyone so i guess its half bad/good but im looking at the glass half full. After service we played a little hackey sack and then Kuya Mark gave me a late birthday present. i was surprised. When i opened it at home it turned out to be a devotional. I am kinda against them because it is like people who God spoke to trying to speak to me instead of me reading the bibe straight up and seeing what God wants to personally tell me yahnoe? But it is a blessing and i am going to read it everyday. Todays verse is acknowledging th Lord's goodness in our lives. Psalm 34:8 
a while back i was going to a birthday party and me and my bros had no birtday present so my dad forced us to buy a present on the way there. My dad then refered to that trip and said that he wants to instill i us a sense of giving gifts. That it is good not only because you give but it tells what kind of people are when it comes to gifts. I thank God for Kuya Mark and Andrea, they really are people i respect and pray for more blessings in their lives. 

K PAYCE!

word on the rock

So today is Friday which means i got to wake up later than usual since i only have one class. It was pretty chill i accidentally slept with my contacts on though -_- But before i elft for school got a haircut and helped my dad pull in these platforms made of wood to the backyard. if only we had like 30 of them. haha Anyways well i was doing ym usual routine and as i was getting dropped of to the trolley a house had a rock with a bible verse painted on it. It was the verse Isaiah 45:3-5

As soon as i got into the trolley i pulled out my bible but it was kinda weird since nobody reads their bible in public let alone in a trolley. But i claim to not be ashamed of God nor the word and read whenever i ahve to or need to. Anyways, i read my book and disregarded people around me. it says,

3 I will give you the treasures of darkness,
riches stored in secret places,
so that you may know that I am the LORD,
the God of Israel, who summons you by name.

4 For the sake of Jacob my servant,
of Israel my chosen,
I summon you by name
and bestow on you a title of honor,
though you do not acknowledge me.

5 I am the LORD, and there is no other;
apart from me there is no God.
I will strengthen you,
though you have not acknowledged me,

When i read this i was like wow. Lets look into more detail eh? Notice how God uses darkness to describe his riches. Of course i could not just read those verses. I read within context and also read the begining verse.

Isaiah 45

1 "This is what the LORD says to his anointed,
to Cyrus, whose right hand I take hold of
to subdue nations before him
and to strip kings of their armor,
to open doors before him
so that gates will not be shut:

2 I will go before you
and will level the mountains ^[a] ;
I will break down gates of bronze
and cut through bars of iron.

To his anointed. Many people can recieve anointing but only few are using it correctly. In my church i learned that many people are recieved the anointing but are unable to recognize it or are just ignorant to its truths. The anointing is a gift from God. I am truly not an expert in anything in the bible but i am really seeking God and provision in my life so i may speak the word. The anointing according to John is "living water" It pours from our hearts and rejuvenates us. It is water giving by God to quench our thirst. From this pouring comes everlasting life.

Well anyways back to the text, God gives this promise to the anointed readers. "This is what the LORD says to his anointed" A promise of riches hidden in the darkness. I dont know about you guys but when i think about darkness i think about, those heartless people in kingdom of hearts. haha anyways, God really spoke to me today and just said that even though at times i do not acknowledge him, he still strengthens us. he even has awards waiting for us hidden in reserve! how cool! He has also given us honor and we must all uphold our honor.

Thank you Lord.

Well im done for the day and i guess ill chill in the library cause at home my parents might tell me what to do or i wont get anything done. I will probably work on some homework until 4 go home so by that time i can go to youth haha! peace

break my spirit

Psalm 51

For the director of music. A psalm of David. When the prophet Nathan came to him after David had committed adultery with Bathsheba.

1 Have mercy on me, O God,
according to your unfailing love;
according to your great compassion
blot out my transgressions.

2 Wash away all my iniquity
and cleanse me from my sin.

3 For I know my transgressions,
and my sin is always before me.

4 Against you, you only, have I sinned
and done what is evil in your sight,
so that you are proved right when you speak
and justified when you judge.

5 Surely I was sinful at birth,
sinful from the time my mother conceived me.

6 Surely you desire truth in the inner parts ^[a] ;
you teach ^[b] me wisdom in the inmost place.

7 Cleanse me with hyssop, and I will be clean;
wash me, and I will be whiter than snow.

8 Let me hear joy and gladness;
let the bones you have crushed rejoice.

9 Hide your face from my sins
and blot out all my iniquity.

10 Create in me a pure heart, O God,
and renew a steadfast spirit within me.

11 Do not cast me from your presence
or take your Holy Spirit from me.

12 Restore to me the joy of your salvation
and grant me a willing spirit, to sustain me.

13 Then I will teach transgressors your ways,
and sinners will turn back to you.

14 Save me from bloodguilt, O God,
the God who saves me,
and my tongue will sing of your righteousness.

15 O Lord, open my lips,
and my mouth will declare your praise.

16 You do not delight in sacrifice, or I would bring it;
you do not take pleasure in burnt offerings.

17 The sacrifices of God are ^[c] a broken spirit;
a broken and contrite heart,
O God, you will not despise.

18 In your good pleasure make Zion prosper;
build up the walls of Jerusalem.

19 Then there will be righteous sacrifices,
whole burnt offerings to delight you;
then bulls will be offered on your altar.

Lord God break my spirit for only you can fix it. Break my heart for what breaks yours. In your hands i commit again my life. Thank you Lord for your word.

Legal American

Yup i am officially an adult. Though i would argue that i think 21 should be the age for adults. Once every year i have to update my age by 1. And go through a month of trying to remember that i am 18 now. aha. Same goes for the years, when it becomes a new year, people have to think before noting the date and once it hits march it becomes secondhand. What's pretty funny is that since my brother Jeff is born in July 9 and i am in september, that means he and i are the same age for quite awhile which is pretty unique. But since last sunday i am now above him! BWAHAHAHa take that little underling! just kidding.

Thinks i am planning on doing:
getting my license
getting a job
and that's about it really.

I really thank God for these 18 years that he has really blessed me with. I have really grown from my church and family and friends. I have persuaded my self of the path i will take when it comes to life. And things are holding a different kind of perspective now. In church, i was finally admitted tot he band. I really thank God for that and i just hope he gives me more oppurunities. What i am really praying for right now is exhortation and worship elading and leading. Well many things but yeah.

My church is bomb and God is really shining his light on us. The one thing i do not like is how are church is focused on filipinos. i think i might leave the church but i really dont know, whatever God ordains me to do i shall follow. I noticed alot of my christian friends do not really seem christian!

Christians of this genertion who are cool and christian like are usually people who have many friends in church and go to church all the time. Do not get me wrong that is good but it seems they love the church rather than God himself. Seeing all these little kids and people repping Gods name and bible verses they do not even read is really shameful. Sometimes i want to say to them, are you really a christian? stop making us LOOK SO BAD! you are an embarrassment! They are using God to look innocent and pure and kind when really they do not give him any credit. A true believer believes. When you believe something you do not brush it off you take it in and apply it to your life. Believeing is applying a new truth to your life! but who am i to say. I am working on it as well and i know i will live a life holy and acceptable to him. i will watch me,

I really hope to take up a job like Mark and Andrea or Sam and Alrene. I have been gifted with alot and hope to move in accordance to the faith. I just want to share the blessings that i have recieved with others.

humility. humility humility.

so far so lo

A new beginning for me and everything is so different.

In Highschool, everything is so laid back that assignments do not require as much atention because teachers care and will do what they can to help. In college, teachers do not care, your on your own, and you handle what you have to do. No reminders no nothing. There isn't even the luxury of friends who share the same class with you anymore. Why? because not everyone has the same schodule. Some take morning classes others take afternoon or nights. Some only take classes on Mondays wednesdays fridays and others only on tuesdays or thursdays! I take classes everyday and have a 3hour break between two of my classses and that is where i am right now.

I met alot of people and they are quite nice, except we can not get to know each other because we all have an agenda, college is not an everyday thing anymore that everyone goes throgh, its a path to succeeding in your career. A path only you can take. Dont expect help from others and dont get in their way. People have things to do and places to see. Different classes or majors. Sometimes i see my friends from highschool and want to say hi but what if they are late to something and i do say hi, they may feel obligated to talk and i might get uncomfortable for them because they want to be friendly but they have things to do.

But do not get me wrong, i really like college. Unlike highschool, everyone tried to get into sdsu. Unlike the partiers or druggies or smokers who give up at life, people in sdsu are passed that, sure they still do drugs and smoke but they give priority to school.

Usually during my breaks i am either :catching up on homework, sleeping in the library, or in the computer lab. Classes are getting a little more tough so im glad i have this break time, time for myself and school. It also means that i do not have to stay up at night studying or writing an essay unless it was for my first class. The library is quite convenient, no disturbances excluding people whispering on their phone to tell their colleagues where they are. everyone is here for the same reasons. I can not do my homeork at home so i stay until its done at sdsu.


My classes are pretty spread.


My favorite are my theatre and tfm classes. They are all my kind of people. Right now we are going to work in groups and try to explain a certain problem by acting it out except in geibberish. My group has 1 girl all guys and 1 black guy and me.

our situation/problem was preparing for battle which to me was pretty vague. All i could think of was the rocky theme and "LETS GET DOWN TO BUSINESS TO DEFEAT THE HANS!"

but it was weird. As we were sharing our ideas, people kept competing for the higher voice or control in a polite way so it was understandable but very noticable. Some thought of pretty clever ideas but it was sooooooo weird. For me really cause i usually take control cause my kind of crowd is either too shy to speak up, or just dont care and depend on me. Now everyone is into it! SO COOL! but i kinda doubt our group is going to do so great. They seem to have the mindsets of doing what they are suppose to do, and limit themselves. Why? maybe because they have other classes to worry about, or because thats really what they are made of. I really dont know ima just flow with it for a while.

My tfm class is every monday so i get home around 7/8! =O i know. either that or get home at 10pm =[. But its so cool! basically i watch movies and talk about the history of film which i am really intertested in.

i dont want to talk about my classes anymore haha. But i sure wish i lived on campus. I know it would be so much easier actually building relationships with people but its all good i understand the $$ situation.

i have so much to write but ima stop.