Charisma

Last night i decided to go back to the INtervarsity fellowship held at sdsu. I went to the same spot i went tok last weeek and could not find them. I think i circled around campus about 50 times, it was kind of embarrassing bbecause i kept seeing the same people as i was going back and forth and i could not help but thinko about what they thought of me

Probably something like, "that was the seventh time i saw that guy, i think he's lost"
So i asked friends, like this OH this guy

LEMME DIGRESS.. there's this guy who said hey you! your from youtube. I was like yeah, but inside i was like OHHHHHHHH YEAHHHH!!!!!!!! hahaha, i felt kind of famous and it was weird. I was like who are you? and then he said, oh it's ricky from rickycharms. haha that's his youtube site so go check him out, he is a dancer and he's pretty friendly he wants to collaborate and i said yeah then we departed.

Anyways back to what i was saying, i saw him and he asked his friends if they know or can locate where intervarsity is. They said no and directed me towards their office but said the place had nobody in it. It was weird when i was in it, i saw the christian place, located right next to the gay/lesbian/str8 alliance club. Then i thought, wow that's awkward. ahaha. Anyways i went to the hall where they were not at,. the same palce i first went to and these people sitting next to it were like, are you loking for intervarsity, at first i was a little embarrassed but it was ok. I met this guy Beau and he said that intervarsity was being held somewehre else, and he walked me there. I felt really noob but it's ok.

Wehn we got there people were looking at me cause i was new, it's weird cause i'm the guy at my church who introduces people to the church. Now i see it in a whole different perspective. Anyway, when we got there, we basically did our Jesus thang and worship and praise started. The worship leader and other 4 people (including kajone, 2 other guitars, and a guy who uses falsetto [which i think is kinda weird]) They were leading worship and basically giving new people the jist of what intervarsity is, what worship is, and things like that. It was really cool. Of coursen i am not new to God and thank God everyday for the mornings he wakes me up. But as i was getting into the song, i did not know it so i just looked at the words and tried to follow. In my old church i worship all out and i feel comfortable there. Unlike in intervarsity i did not feel so comfortable. I know this is wrong but i wanted to worship with my hands str8 up and my voice lifted high, since not alot of people did that, i was very discouraged and limited. But though i was limited i felt like i was convicting people. Which is good.

But when pastor Beau invited everyone into a time of prayer for forgiveness or things like that i asked for prayer and the guy who welcomed me offered to pray for me. I said yeah and we went to the back. I told him my situation and after he prayed for me, suprisingly he requested me to pray for him. I am really glad he was convicted and hope God shows more oppurtunities for him to shine like a city on a hill. Lord God have your way upon Intervarsity and make it for your cause. Thanks.

I told my dad and he seemed proud, and encouraged me to start going more, and i said of course. I was going to ask him but he mentiuoned it first so Praise God. =D