Thats what i am. Except i rarely use the word hate. I really learned to stop saying that. anyways today is Black Friday and i am on my bed surrounded by schoolwork -_- h how i wish i could just buy a fireplace, put it in my room, then just toss the stuff inside. thatd be cool.
Its thanksgiving break and everyone says ther gonna do hw, but they end up doing it on the day before. I really REALLY need to change that about myself.
Im starting to find people on blogspot, and this Blogspot aint as private no more. people are reading this. hmmmm...
H E L L O E V R Y O N E W H O C A R E S A B O U T M Y T H O U G H TS H E L LO!
I wanna start writing poetry again.
From the once called forests of the lands afar,
lies a beast
who sleeps
until the day of war,
now this creature is the only last of its kind
Seeking revenge
for the ones who cursed his mind
planting mines
to keep everyone away
From the things he fears
will draw the evil clay
forming molds of the beholder
Heat transforms colder
But thats all the norm screaming
come
what
may
28.11.08
Happy Thanksgiving
It was alright, got to jam and stuff and see ian. I am thankful for everything really.
24.11.08
Thanksmas
its almost Thanksgiving, but im thinking more about christmas. haha but isn't everybody?
Every Sunday since last last sunday, my dad decided it would be good for us to study the bible one chapter at a time. Of course the human side of me was like, UGHHHHH my time, BORING right? But the real me was like HOW COOL! i get to pracitce working in bible studies, i get to leran about Great and Mighty God, and most of all i will be able to get lcoser with my family. The order of who takes charge during the studies goes as follows: Me, Jeff, Jarell (he's this week i cant wait to see what hes going to do) mom (im excited about her too ^_^) and lastly my dad (he's like pastor status so he's good haha)
Well so far my chapter i learned about the geneology of Jesus Christ how he was the son of many such as the great King David and the Ever Famous Abraham, but born from the virgin Mary and the Holy Spirit. Informed through a Dream Joseph has this constatnt communication with God IN HIS DREAMS! how cool is that like God sends angels INTO his dream?! WTCRAZY! haha thats cool, then it goes into the three wise men and how they disobeyed King Herod who was afraid of jesus' birth cause he was to rule above him. But Jesus sends more angels to Joseph's draems and Jesus escapes harm. =] YAY Baby Jesus!
Im really procrastinating on my dirvers license. My brother got it before me! eeeee! Oh well, im practicing and i keep almost killing the people im driving with -_- but ill get better. I would say why i havent gotten it yet, but by saying it..hold up ima go eat something TBC!
Every Sunday since last last sunday, my dad decided it would be good for us to study the bible one chapter at a time. Of course the human side of me was like, UGHHHHH my time, BORING right? But the real me was like HOW COOL! i get to pracitce working in bible studies, i get to leran about Great and Mighty God, and most of all i will be able to get lcoser with my family. The order of who takes charge during the studies goes as follows: Me, Jeff, Jarell (he's this week i cant wait to see what hes going to do) mom (im excited about her too ^_^) and lastly my dad (he's like pastor status so he's good haha)
Well so far my chapter i learned about the geneology of Jesus Christ how he was the son of many such as the great King David and the Ever Famous Abraham, but born from the virgin Mary and the Holy Spirit. Informed through a Dream Joseph has this constatnt communication with God IN HIS DREAMS! how cool is that like God sends angels INTO his dream?! WTCRAZY! haha thats cool, then it goes into the three wise men and how they disobeyed King Herod who was afraid of jesus' birth cause he was to rule above him. But Jesus sends more angels to Joseph's draems and Jesus escapes harm. =] YAY Baby Jesus!
Im really procrastinating on my dirvers license. My brother got it before me! eeeee! Oh well, im practicing and i keep almost killing the people im driving with -_- but ill get better. I would say why i havent gotten it yet, but by saying it..hold up ima go eat something TBC!
17.11.08
Ab samahan
I think i am going to name my Blog. hmmmmmm... i will name you G429!!! haha iono.
Dear G429,
Ok to AB samahan was a crazy day. I am part of this club called abscope and itsd basically this outreach program and where freshman in college actually get the oppurtunity to be staff members. So as soon as i got to ab samahan around 730am i realized how many people were there. I didnt have my clothing and i had to find some guy who was selling the volunteer shirts. When i got it, i was immediately helping out near the registration desks. Simply just regulating. I was the volunteer that the kids were scared of cause i kept yelling and really challenging them haha. I had my scissors that day but they were more of a display than for use. But i was going to cut some wristbands if people started giving me an attitude.
Alright i think the biggest contribution i did was handling the HUGE lines. The first time was for lunch and it turned out t hat people could not handle it. EVERYONE was just too NICE to say anything thatll do anything or TOO mean that once they yelled, people still would not do anything. It was hard for people especially the leaders. Its the worst feeling to say something, be heard, then be ignored. UGHHHHH but i took a mintue and thought.
Mission: single file line
Problem: Too many kids
Resources: bunch of volunteers with nothing to do.
So what i thought of doing was cutting the line. holding up the flow. If i just keep yelling at them, yeah they know they have to be in a single file line, but that doesnt really let them know how. By cutting the line and holding the flow i was able to let the group thats close to the food go and slowly transform the huge mob into a single filed organized line. I was soooooooooo happy =] haha i feel like a loser control-obseessed person but who cares. My abscope director said what i had to do and i did it.
The next line for the talent show was complete chaos, and i felt really embarrased. But i took charge and me being the first-year had people who were 6th years asking me what they could do to help, or listeniong when i directed them to do something. I FELT SO COOOL! you know? I realized i didnt carry myself as someone who was just helping, i carried myself as someone who knew what he was doing knew how to do it, and was unmovable. No one asked me if i was a first year, they just wanted organiztion.
Then the last line, ohhhh man. The line for the dance. I knew it. I was prepared and i knew what to do. Ok. They specifically called me out and i ran to the door where the dance entrance was. They told me what they needed did some communication and then i made my plan. It was 15 minutes or so before the talent show was over and some volunteers headed towards the dance area to secure and be ready. I basically told em the plan i nwas going to make. I made a path and made sure the mob would be NOWHERE enar the entrance. First there would be the mob near the steps, THEN the fat line taht kind or curved and stopped. I stopped it there and from there people would divide into two lines. Of coruse i would stop them everytime the last line which lead to the entrance of the dance got full, that way, people at starbucks could come and go and we would not be as botherslome as we would be. OHHH MNNN its sooo coool to see your plan just be successful I rememebr right before the kids came i was so excited to see if it would work! And thank God it did =]
Yeah i know its jsut lines but it was a HUGE difference that really eased alot of stress for people. I was really glad how well it turned out. |
At the dance, well iono. I kind of quit dancing. Like last year. My last dance was prom. I used to SWANG like there was NO TOMRORO! i would get freaky and just grind on ALL THE CHICKS! i was good no doubt. like foreal if you were a girl, you would have fun dancing with me cause i could follow the girls from top to bottom, i could even lead them where to go and take control. It was so SEXY! Even my friends would compliment me and man...
But now that i look back at it. ITs reall;y disgusting, i got really good at something REALLY disgusting. Sex with clothes, i looked like everyone else. MY friend told me why she doesnt dance like that, i was actually trying to convince her to dance so i could dance with her but she told me, "its just weird, besides, your not gonna dance like that when your older or with your family." And i started thinking of those cute dances daughters do with their dads and i am like. Your totally right. What has dancing become? It was really disgusting...
So when i went into the dance i just saw alot of people freaking and last year me and my friend would just go up on random girls and just dance. NEVER got rejected. I could have done it again and i had a few friends that would have, but this year, i jsut joined my other friends and raved. Sure it felt klind of lame, but i didnt do the nasty. I didnt do waht i usaed to do and most importantly i was dancing, having fun =] no grinding this year just enjoying my time with some friends. it was really cool! i even got to go on stage. the best part was when they started playing techno and everyone had the glowsticks up. haha my friends glowstick exploded on him hahahaha.
Oh and seeing michelle speak was really a new perspective of her for me really cool Proud of ya! =D I had a workshop but i did not do as well cause i wasnt really doing a motivation speech but a expereince kind of thing. but wow that wass cool seeing yuh! oh and i SAW PJ!!! MANN i miss those guys. YOU TEMEC KIDS ROCK! and ALBY you dance really well man! not like you guys will see this anyway BYE~
Dear G429,
Ok to AB samahan was a crazy day. I am part of this club called abscope and itsd basically this outreach program and where freshman in college actually get the oppurtunity to be staff members. So as soon as i got to ab samahan around 730am i realized how many people were there. I didnt have my clothing and i had to find some guy who was selling the volunteer shirts. When i got it, i was immediately helping out near the registration desks. Simply just regulating. I was the volunteer that the kids were scared of cause i kept yelling and really challenging them haha. I had my scissors that day but they were more of a display than for use. But i was going to cut some wristbands if people started giving me an attitude.
Alright i think the biggest contribution i did was handling the HUGE lines. The first time was for lunch and it turned out t hat people could not handle it. EVERYONE was just too NICE to say anything thatll do anything or TOO mean that once they yelled, people still would not do anything. It was hard for people especially the leaders. Its the worst feeling to say something, be heard, then be ignored. UGHHHHH but i took a mintue and thought.
Mission: single file line
Problem: Too many kids
Resources: bunch of volunteers with nothing to do.
So what i thought of doing was cutting the line. holding up the flow. If i just keep yelling at them, yeah they know they have to be in a single file line, but that doesnt really let them know how. By cutting the line and holding the flow i was able to let the group thats close to the food go and slowly transform the huge mob into a single filed organized line. I was soooooooooo happy =] haha i feel like a loser control-obseessed person but who cares. My abscope director said what i had to do and i did it.
The next line for the talent show was complete chaos, and i felt really embarrased. But i took charge and me being the first-year had people who were 6th years asking me what they could do to help, or listeniong when i directed them to do something. I FELT SO COOOL! you know? I realized i didnt carry myself as someone who was just helping, i carried myself as someone who knew what he was doing knew how to do it, and was unmovable. No one asked me if i was a first year, they just wanted organiztion.
Then the last line, ohhhh man. The line for the dance. I knew it. I was prepared and i knew what to do. Ok. They specifically called me out and i ran to the door where the dance entrance was. They told me what they needed did some communication and then i made my plan. It was 15 minutes or so before the talent show was over and some volunteers headed towards the dance area to secure and be ready. I basically told em the plan i nwas going to make. I made a path and made sure the mob would be NOWHERE enar the entrance. First there would be the mob near the steps, THEN the fat line taht kind or curved and stopped. I stopped it there and from there people would divide into two lines. Of coruse i would stop them everytime the last line which lead to the entrance of the dance got full, that way, people at starbucks could come and go and we would not be as botherslome as we would be. OHHH MNNN its sooo coool to see your plan just be successful I rememebr right before the kids came i was so excited to see if it would work! And thank God it did =]
Yeah i know its jsut lines but it was a HUGE difference that really eased alot of stress for people. I was really glad how well it turned out. |
At the dance, well iono. I kind of quit dancing. Like last year. My last dance was prom. I used to SWANG like there was NO TOMRORO! i would get freaky and just grind on ALL THE CHICKS! i was good no doubt. like foreal if you were a girl, you would have fun dancing with me cause i could follow the girls from top to bottom, i could even lead them where to go and take control. It was so SEXY! Even my friends would compliment me and man...
But now that i look back at it. ITs reall;y disgusting, i got really good at something REALLY disgusting. Sex with clothes, i looked like everyone else. MY friend told me why she doesnt dance like that, i was actually trying to convince her to dance so i could dance with her but she told me, "its just weird, besides, your not gonna dance like that when your older or with your family." And i started thinking of those cute dances daughters do with their dads and i am like. Your totally right. What has dancing become? It was really disgusting...
So when i went into the dance i just saw alot of people freaking and last year me and my friend would just go up on random girls and just dance. NEVER got rejected. I could have done it again and i had a few friends that would have, but this year, i jsut joined my other friends and raved. Sure it felt klind of lame, but i didnt do the nasty. I didnt do waht i usaed to do and most importantly i was dancing, having fun =] no grinding this year just enjoying my time with some friends. it was really cool! i even got to go on stage. the best part was when they started playing techno and everyone had the glowsticks up. haha my friends glowstick exploded on him hahahaha.
Oh and seeing michelle speak was really a new perspective of her for me really cool Proud of ya! =D I had a workshop but i did not do as well cause i wasnt really doing a motivation speech but a expereince kind of thing. but wow that wass cool seeing yuh! oh and i SAW PJ!!! MANN i miss those guys. YOU TEMEC KIDS ROCK! and ALBY you dance really well man! not like you guys will see this anyway BYE~
Leadership
I got it! You got it? Theres three types of people in this world. Followers, Leaders, and nobodies.
Leaders: People who start something and take control over an idea. People who have a goal mission or dream that they try to accomplish. People who you can listen to and look up to. Bold, courageous, Creative. Think on the dot, are the least to give up. Always thinking of new ideas, and are inspired by the ones around them or by what they learned. People who believe in something and keep going. Those who take charge when in chaotic times.
"Warren G. Bennis:
The most dangerous leadership myth is that leaders are born -- that there is a genetic factor to leadership. This myth asserts that people simply either have certain charismatic qualities or not. That's nonsense; in fact, the opposite is true. Leaders are made rather than born."
"Winston Churchill:
The price of greatness is responsibility."
Followers: Servants, teammates, brothers, people whop you can depend on. People who believe. Those you can count on when your in doubt. Support, build. Those who multiply and back you up. People who give themselves up to obey, trusting. Trustworthy. Faithful, dependent. Those who folllow without cease due to conviction. Flexible (like willing to change), eccentric. All around, useful, humble.
"“True leadership must be for the benefit of the followers, not the enrichment of the leaders.”"
"“The Bible promises us that Jesus will return to take His faithful followers with Him to live with Him in His glorious presence forever. Everyone else will be left behind to face God's wrath and judgment. If Jesus were to return today, do you know if He would take you with Him to heaven?”"
Nobodies: The "cool" people who dont make a difference, they just work within the box and do what everyone else is doing. They basically just take up space because they can not find a better reason to live than to live for the time-being. pity.
In America there is an American Promise to achieve on our own. To depend on our own. But Jesus has a different mindset. He wants us to humble ourselves by becoming servants and depending on him. Its so hard to be a christian in America, but we gotta shine for him you guys. Its not all about getting what you can for yourself, but getting what you can to benefit the kingdom.
P.S. my knees keep popping everytime i sit and straigten them out. =[
Leaders: People who start something and take control over an idea. People who have a goal mission or dream that they try to accomplish. People who you can listen to and look up to. Bold, courageous, Creative. Think on the dot, are the least to give up. Always thinking of new ideas, and are inspired by the ones around them or by what they learned. People who believe in something and keep going. Those who take charge when in chaotic times.
"Warren G. Bennis:
The most dangerous leadership myth is that leaders are born -- that there is a genetic factor to leadership. This myth asserts that people simply either have certain charismatic qualities or not. That's nonsense; in fact, the opposite is true. Leaders are made rather than born."
"Winston Churchill:
The price of greatness is responsibility."
Followers: Servants, teammates, brothers, people whop you can depend on. People who believe. Those you can count on when your in doubt. Support, build. Those who multiply and back you up. People who give themselves up to obey, trusting. Trustworthy. Faithful, dependent. Those who folllow without cease due to conviction. Flexible (like willing to change), eccentric. All around, useful, humble.
"“True leadership must be for the benefit of the followers, not the enrichment of the leaders.”"
"“The Bible promises us that Jesus will return to take His faithful followers with Him to live with Him in His glorious presence forever. Everyone else will be left behind to face God's wrath and judgment. If Jesus were to return today, do you know if He would take you with Him to heaven?”"
Nobodies: The "cool" people who dont make a difference, they just work within the box and do what everyone else is doing. They basically just take up space because they can not find a better reason to live than to live for the time-being. pity.
In America there is an American Promise to achieve on our own. To depend on our own. But Jesus has a different mindset. He wants us to humble ourselves by becoming servants and depending on him. Its so hard to be a christian in America, but we gotta shine for him you guys. Its not all about getting what you can for yourself, but getting what you can to benefit the kingdom.
P.S. my knees keep popping everytime i sit and straigten them out. =[
13.11.08
Too many girls
There are so many girls that are at sdsu that dress very provactively. And i am coming back from the retreat trying to work and be aware of myself. I always catch myself looking at girls in ways that are wrong YES ITS LUSTING but im a guy and we all do that. But now that i am trying to change it, i catch myself looking mroe at the ground because every girl that passes by looks like a MODEL with cleavages and everything!!! Gosh these girls need to find selfrespect and disconnect from this world. There are better ways to get attention and diluting mens eyes to your body parts is just EVIL !Since the first day i came here, just a bunch of gitrls that look like they are from the movies! and better yet they are live right in front of me!! I am out of the filipino culture and into America! Land of Diversity and what not. you know in intervarsity, i do not look at the girls the wrong way, and thats how i like it =] I feel more comfortable no distractions, and everyon has respect for themselves and most importantly God. gosh. . . this is going to be soooooooooo hard. But God give me strngth, if you said it is not right, im going to do my best.
1 John 2:15-17 Love not the world, neither the things that are in the world. If any man love the world, the love of the Father is not in him. For all that is in the world, the lust of the flesh, and the lust of the eyes, and the pride of life, is not of the Father, but is of the world. And the world passes away, and the lust thereof: but he that does the will of God abides forever.
Amen, so many things in that passage im working on but God thank you for revealing to me. Wish me luck on my day to day passes. UGHHHHHHHHHHHH i can do this.
1 John 2:15-17 Love not the world, neither the things that are in the world. If any man love the world, the love of the Father is not in him. For all that is in the world, the lust of the flesh, and the lust of the eyes, and the pride of life, is not of the Father, but is of the world. And the world passes away, and the lust thereof: but he that does the will of God abides forever.
Amen, so many things in that passage im working on but God thank you for revealing to me. Wish me luck on my day to day passes. UGHHHHHHHHHHHH i can do this.
12.11.08
Catalina Island
Soul Food
Its basically a retreat for this christian in SDSU
When i got to go it was cool cause it cost around $125 but i only had to pay $40 and the people would do scholarship for me =D
So before we got to the seaport i was riding with Aaron and Juliann those guys are pretty rad. Well Aarons a bit cooler cause he plays music and Juliann is the new guy, haha i WAS the new guy until he showed up. well turns out we got to the seaport which is the ship paralel to an airport, we were an hour early. AS soon as i got in there were a grip of people but i jumped right in and met alot of people.
What was cool was that everytime i met people i gave them high fives. And if you know me i give manly high fives. Everyone remembered me cause of it. haha it got dark then we finally got onto the ship. it was kinda wobbly but i chilled upstairs and got to meet more people and hifive more people as well. There was a small group singing then i joined and it was bomb. I then went to the main deck then the bottom floor. when i went back up tot he top i met even more people ans some random guy came up to me asking if i was Adrian Mique and he asked if he could talk to me.
I was all " am i in trouble?"
he said noa nd introduced himself as Chris W.
He basically invited me to emcee with him for the whole weekend. and i excitedly said yes. But check this out, he is a writing/math major and graduated colege 6 years ago, why did he choose me? i am a first year in college and first time going to catalina! the thing is, i prayed for this oppurtunity and God provided.
The lessons were basscally as follows
1: Listen to Gods Voice
2: Be dependant on God
3: Live an Adventure
4: understand the cross.
wait a minute i listed up four..bnut the weekend was 3 days! YESSS my friends, i was on the island for four days why??? cause God wanted to teach us how to depend on him by actually setting us up.
On sunday night we were suppose to leave but the waters became unstable around the isalnd. and back at LA where the seaport was at, the waves reached 35 feet!! CRAZY everyone was excited and so was i. I really felt God was moving amogst us and we were really living an adventure
Another thing was that the worship leader is gpingt o take me under her wing so i am going to learn alot from her. I really thank her and thank God and i am really excited to learn. When we (her name is Audrey) jammed together our voiced really blended.
I could write A GRIPLOAD but thats about it
"what in the key of F are you doing?"
"check check check check norris."
"oo ooooooooooooooo!"
Tonight i stopped talking to her. i dunno what might happen. but right now i am offcially single and not looking, i think ill try fixing it but i really do not know.
Its basically a retreat for this christian in SDSU
When i got to go it was cool cause it cost around $125 but i only had to pay $40 and the people would do scholarship for me =D
So before we got to the seaport i was riding with Aaron and Juliann those guys are pretty rad. Well Aarons a bit cooler cause he plays music and Juliann is the new guy, haha i WAS the new guy until he showed up. well turns out we got to the seaport which is the ship paralel to an airport, we were an hour early. AS soon as i got in there were a grip of people but i jumped right in and met alot of people.
What was cool was that everytime i met people i gave them high fives. And if you know me i give manly high fives. Everyone remembered me cause of it. haha it got dark then we finally got onto the ship. it was kinda wobbly but i chilled upstairs and got to meet more people and hifive more people as well. There was a small group singing then i joined and it was bomb. I then went to the main deck then the bottom floor. when i went back up tot he top i met even more people ans some random guy came up to me asking if i was Adrian Mique and he asked if he could talk to me.
I was all " am i in trouble?"
he said noa nd introduced himself as Chris W.
He basically invited me to emcee with him for the whole weekend. and i excitedly said yes. But check this out, he is a writing/math major and graduated colege 6 years ago, why did he choose me? i am a first year in college and first time going to catalina! the thing is, i prayed for this oppurtunity and God provided.
The lessons were basscally as follows
1: Listen to Gods Voice
2: Be dependant on God
3: Live an Adventure
4: understand the cross.
wait a minute i listed up four..bnut the weekend was 3 days! YESSS my friends, i was on the island for four days why??? cause God wanted to teach us how to depend on him by actually setting us up.
On sunday night we were suppose to leave but the waters became unstable around the isalnd. and back at LA where the seaport was at, the waves reached 35 feet!! CRAZY everyone was excited and so was i. I really felt God was moving amogst us and we were really living an adventure
Another thing was that the worship leader is gpingt o take me under her wing so i am going to learn alot from her. I really thank her and thank God and i am really excited to learn. When we (her name is Audrey) jammed together our voiced really blended.
I could write A GRIPLOAD but thats about it
"what in the key of F are you doing?"
"check check check check norris."
"oo ooooooooooooooo!"
Tonight i stopped talking to her. i dunno what might happen. but right now i am offcially single and not looking, i think ill try fixing it but i really do not know.
3.11.08
well, im losing it
My, starting good habits, are fading away. And i got to take a step back and look at what i need as a person and as a christian. I will start reading my bible again i believe it has been 5 days since then? but back then like 5 months ago i would have been "5 days? wow so much!" iono but i really feel bad and i want God to tell me more about him so i can worship him for who he truly is =]
My school is a bit struggling so i got to stop that. And to my only reader, who only came here once, Michelle i hope you are careful with what your doing. You are a really cool person and need more people like you in the youth. The right guy will come to you soon so do not look for him, God will provide you with someone great =] So learn more about him. I thinkn you are one of my favorites in youth just cause your so outgoing and friendly, and know wasap. haha iono. THIS BETTER CHEER YOU UP!
Im going to need more time cause im getting TOO involved with school AND IM ONLY A FRESHMAN
staff member of abscope.
INTERVARSITY MEMBER
JIL youth
SChool with EIGHTEEN CREDITS!
ima be late for class PEACE OUT!
My school is a bit struggling so i got to stop that. And to my only reader, who only came here once, Michelle i hope you are careful with what your doing. You are a really cool person and need more people like you in the youth. The right guy will come to you soon so do not look for him, God will provide you with someone great =] So learn more about him. I thinkn you are one of my favorites in youth just cause your so outgoing and friendly, and know wasap. haha iono. THIS BETTER CHEER YOU UP!
Im going to need more time cause im getting TOO involved with school AND IM ONLY A FRESHMAN
staff member of abscope.
INTERVARSITY MEMBER
JIL youth
SChool with EIGHTEEN CREDITS!
ima be late for class PEACE OUT!
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